Feeling of Broken heart

I have finished my scheduled KT which finished at 9:30 IST. Now have nothing to do much but have to stay in office. Praveen (who is working with me now) playing a song which I also enjoying. Song is "Yeh dil sambhalne ko, tere bin razi nahi". Song was touching my heart and I was listening with full concentration. There was line in this song:

Aisi Waisi Baaton Se Rutha Nahi Karate, Dil Jab Judate Hain,Tuta Nahi Karate , Chhodake Yeh Daaman Raahon Mein Chalane Ko Yeh Dil Sambhalne Ko,Tere Bina Raazi Nahi.

These above line became a catch line for me and I lost in another word with few simple Questions. "Is it the case that Dil jab judate hai tuta nahi karte??" I have seen alot where "Dil jab toote to jude nahi karte" revrse of this song. World of Heart broken people!!!

I started analyzing the feelings.

How will you feel if you have lost your love..?

Love which was everything for you , is no more with you..The love which make you happy every moment, surprise you every minute, nakhre of your darling...

Face which act as freshner or Oxygen for you is now become like CO2.

These all things...uff I can't imagine what will be life after losing the one, who was your eye bird.

From where you will get solace for your broken heart?

Who is going to support you your mind? your Heart..? Your Friend...?

I started thinking about one such story of our school days:

There was a guy in my school who was in love with girl. Girl was so beautiful that anybody can be her Deewana. But that time we were kid and not much interested in this kind of stuff. But that guy was very much attracted towards this girl. Both are from same cast (I’m mentioning this as in our place this matters alot). That Guy used to do everything for that girl.

In Class VI and VIII, a Scholar ship exam used to be held up in our place and we used to participate to save money of our Parents ( Achhe Bachhe). Once result of Scholar ship exam was announced we got surprised, Guy was failed in exam. Even teacher was not ready to accept this fact. It was a big shock for us as our school group rules the classes and some body from our group failed it was surprising for us.

We decided that we are not going to stop till knowing the secret behind this. And then that Guy told us that he didn't attend this exam as 'he has exchanged copy with that girl'. We run to dash board and check result and found that yes! she was passed!

I still remember the line from my frnd: "Chhodo yaaro usi ki khushi me to apni khushi hai..she want to crack exam and I did it for her...".

Believe me we didn't understand these stuff as we are only concentrate our mind on Cricket, gossip, physics and maths and if we talk about girls then something else not this love type of thing :P.

In 9th class we came to know that guy used to listen only "Mukesh ke dard bhare nagme"( Do you remember scene from Pyar ke Side-effect: Break ho to dher sare Sad song sunne padte hai..rona hota hai..etc). I asked other friends what happen to him. He was not like that. They told me that he has recent break up.

After that I started watching him carefully. He behaves like abnormal people. He used to ask me do you have any collection of Mukesh as I used to hear old songs. One of the brilliant students was no more interested in study. He used to start crying when he didn't able to understand anything (whatever it is Physics, math). He used to say, " how I can show you( to us) what happening inside me?" To read anything or understand anything you need concentration and if I'm trying to concentrate only I can see her face.

His father was also watching him from few months and understands that there is something wrong with this guy. His father started shouting on him, please stop listen these kind of song. All sad song collection was burned by his dad. He (My friend) started crying and told, "Dad I also want to join you drinks party" (His father was one of famous person in that area for drinking alcohol). It’s impossible for anybody to listen something like this from Son. He started saying what happen to you? Why not I died before listening this? My friend corrected his father statement and told, "Dad you don't have to die, I'm planning to do so very soon" and he went his room straight without talking to anybody else of his home.His father was shocked and he called his friends (I was time at my home that time so I don't know what happen but listen from other friend). They (Other friends of mine) told him that my friend was in love with a girl and now she (that girl) is not talking to him. His father understood all things and he told, "it doesn't matter my son it happened in this world, its time to read and develop your carrier. Act like a Veer (Brave) not like a kid ".

I don't know much detail what happen after that but that Guy has ruined his carrier. He got a new friend who was one of FALTU person and got evolved in other kind of activity (leave this point here). Our entire friend is almost settled in life except him.

This was first break up I have seen in my small life. And I realized how much Pain that guy had (when I started understanding these things)?

You know, if you are in true love, Love will be forever. I’m not talking about crushes, flirtations or infatuations. Even though other person stopped loving you it will be in your mind, soul for ever. This is what written by Vidyâpati that, "in spite of getting Sri Krishna’s darshan, Radha( I'm not sure it's Radha or not but mapping on her) is not satisfied. Her thirst keeps on increasing ":

"janam abadhi ham, roop nehârinu nayana nâ tirapita bhelo”.
Meaning - “I have been seeing Him since birth, yet my eyes remain thirsty for more.”

I read below line somewhere:

Love happens only once & rest is just life

It seems true to me, as life will goes on and may be you come in contact of other love or life partner but this time it will not be like first one. Falling in love for the second time may be because you are trying to forget your hurting past unwillingly. After all we all need someone to be their for us.

I heard a lot from the people that time is best healer and that heals everything. Please suggest me one thing: is that the case that time heals everything or we get used to living without the person as we don’t have other option or you can say start living without heart? A broken heart never really heals.

It may seem funny how someone can break your heart and you still love them with all the little pieces of your broken heart. But boss I can say a single line:

Jo tan lage so tan jane kaisi hai is prit ki maya .

If you are a person with big heart then take it a new lesson and start dreaming once again with new hope new ray. There is one relation in this world which help you a lot is your friends. Rest of things you have to do at your own. It's nothing but a fight between mind and heart. Then one who will own will rule your life. I think that Heart ( DIL) is the main thing which creates problem; it wouldn't allow your mind to forget this pain. Mind heals faster with time (Mind thing depend upon how good memory a person has). Don't let you mind to think a lot . Force mind to engage in other work and don't let heart to govern you body( I means to take control of your body).

But at last all the best, God never show such kind of day to anybody. It may seems Bakwas to you then sorry to you take it just as story.